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January 2021 Rewind

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 We are one month into 2021. January has been unbelievably eventful. Considering we are in the midst of a pandemic, the world refuses to stop spinning. While I'm grappling with my anxiety, I find that I'm getting very adept at learning to live with it. I finally got some meds last week, so I'm coping. One of the exercises that I read about while in the midst of an attack is to try and steer your mind from the episode. You can recite a poem or prayer; spell difficult words, try to remember the table of elements...etc. What I've been doing is remembering my favourite books and try to enumerate the characters from that book. It's helping me a little.  Anyway, so this month, I read a total of 21 books: When You Ask Me Where I'm Going by Jasmin Kaur My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell Code Girls by Liza Mundy Royal by Devon McCormack Whisky Throttle by Riley Hart Fired Up by Riley Hart Theft by Finding by David Sedaris Burn by Devon McCormack The Wicker King by

Book Review: Indians on Vacation by Thomas King

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  Last year, I decided to pick up a book by one of Canada's foremost authors. Thomas King is a household name amongst Canadians in the same way as Margaret Atwood is. Born a Californian, King spends most of his career teaching in Canada. His book, The Inconvenient Indian demolishes the false history and narratives about Native Americans in the US and First Nations people in Canada.  One of my goals this year is to read more books from Native American authors. It's not because I'm harboring some kind of obligation but because I know my ratio of books from different races versus white authors is a little wonky. Expanding my horizon, if you will. As well, I noticed how biased my choices are in learning about World History. I'm a Canadian who didn't go to school here, and who rarely follow our politics. This was my way of trying to learn: read more books from Canadian authors, particularly from Indigenous descent.  This book, is perhaps, an easy favourite. Not only for

These Authors Kept Me Company in 2020

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  One of the best things in 2020 was how I had time to read. One of these days, I will show you a sample of my calendar that shows you my day that consisted of walking, running, cooking, washing the dishes. Rinse. Repeat.  I signed up for Audible Escape last year that gave me access to a ton of Romance novels for free or included in my membership. Through that membership I found some of the best romance novels I've ever read. Honestly, though, most of them were from the M/M sub genre. One of those series is the Like Us series by the writing duo of Becca & Krista Ritchie.  LIKE US Series: This series is a spin off from the authors' Addicted & Calloway Sisters' series. Truthfully, I only read some of the books from the series mentioned. I couldn't handle the angst, so I decided to forgo them altogether and read the spin off. The characters in Like Us are the children of the Calloway sisters. So if you're a fan of that series, I highly recommend you check these

Book Review: The Hilarious World of Depression by John Moe

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How many times have you heard some unsolicited advise on how to cure depression? Anyone ever tell you that it's all in your head? That you should look at your life and be thankful because you could have it so much worse? Or if you're a man, you for sure have been told to suck it up, buttercup?  The Hilarious World of Depression was a successful podcast from a renowned NPR host. This book is a collection of essays based from his own struggles and interviews he's conducted from people whom, either admitted to having depression, or were diagnosed.  The best fakers of people who suffers from depression are comedians, I think. Laughing on the outside while suffering on the inside is their MO.  Here, John derives from his experience as a person has had to hide his illness most of his life. He grew up in a household that considers emotions to be a sign of weakness. It is not a traumatic childhood by any stretch of imagination, mind you. It was actually a loving one. Families are j

Hoarders [1]: New Books this Week

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  The Choice by Dr. Edith Eva Eger | Indians on Vacation by Thomas King | Loathe at First Sight by Suzanne Park | From Cold War to Hot Peace by Michael McFaul Hello.  I hope you're all having a great start to your week so far. Some days, I really don't know how most of us haven't just given up and lay in fetal position. After that week? Whew. Personally, I suffered two major panic attacks -- one that was severe enough that I ended up calling 911. The other was on Wednesday while all that shit was going to hell in a hand basket at the Capitol. It was bad enough that I had to spend half an hour in the bathroom because that particular episode involved me crying and gagging. The hyperventilating was bad. I'm getting some blood work done today and hopefully, my doctor can prescribe something.  N E W   B O O K S  T H I S  W E E K The Choice by Dr. Edith Eva Eger. I found this book through Literary Flits' review and it sounded wonderful. So ordered a copy right away.  Ind

Book Review: Everything is F*cked by Mark Manson

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Panic Attacks & Anxiety

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  It's been a fretful year, to be sure. But in 2020, I suffered my first bout of panic attacks during the waning days of the year. The thing is, it just comes. There is no trigger for it. Once, it was so bad that I couldn't get up from bed. I was dizzy, out of breath, and it literally felt like I was dying. It's scary stuff. And no matter how many times my husband told me to breathe, I couldn't. It felt like my heart is going to pop out of my chest.  I don't know if it has to do with the times or whatever I ate prior to the attack, I really couldn't tell. Breathing exercises didn't help. Lying down, doesn't either. While an attack was happening, I fell asleep sitting down. Also, the cold numbness that goes through my body is something else.  If you or someone you know are going through the same things, I did some research into how to ground yourself in the midst of a panic attack.  DEEP BREATHING. Inhale, hold your breath for 2-3 seconds, release. Do thi

2020: The Still Year

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  Hello.  It's the New Year, so everyone but their neighbours' cat is setting goals left and right. In 2020, my goal was to read 150 books and kill it on the blogosphere. And while I reached and surpassed 150 books, the blogging thing was a complete failure.  In 2020, I lost my job in March. I was off for almost three months due to Covid. I really didn't have any motivation to blog anyway, but utterly lost it once that happened. Interestingly enough, losing my job felt like a blessing in disguise, to be honest. Personally, I felt like I slayed life while we were on lockdown. I managed to get my finances in order, learned how to be frugal, and somehow, and due to Trudeau's financial assist while I was unemployed, I managed to pay off my credit cards. Who'd thunk it?! I was really proud of that achievement. Now, I'm instituting all the things that I've learned regarding how to handle our household finances into the coming year. So far, so good.  Health wise, i

Book Review: You're Not Listening by Kate Murphy

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 With the popularity of smart phones and social media giants like Facebook, Twitter, and TikTok, humanity as a whole has become increasingly distracted. While web friendships and relationships grew and had become easily attainable, our physical interactions with our own community is suffering. This book was not written during the pandemic. But it's almost as if it could've been. Because this highlighted how social media is helping when human interactions were not feasible.  Facebook may have lent us an unprecedented global reach, but physically, we have become unreachable. And that's due to the distraction we have on our hands. It had become a natural extension of us -- like limbs that we can't live without. Not only do we become detached, we are like smokers whose natural reaction is to reach for a smoke.  “If anyone tells a story longer than 30 seconds, heads bow not in contemplation but to read texts, check sports scores or see what’s trending online.” However, this

On the Night Table [1]

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 Theft by Finding by David Sedaris | The Wicker King by K. Acrum | Red White & Royal Blue by Casey Mcquiston | Crazy Stupid Bromance by Lyssa Kay Adams